It is very normal to feel anxious, frustrated, afraid and angry. Accept these feelings as normal. Don’t be intimidated by them.
It may be helpful to talk to someone at the victim/witness assistance office. They offer confidentiality and may be able to suggest resources for you.
You may want to be in touch with a self-help or support group for survivors of homicide. These are people who share similar experiences and who understand what you are going through. They get together on a regular basis to share stories and experiences, to cry and laugh together and to vent their anger. You will meet people who have managed to “hang in” and are still around and functioning 15 or 20 years after the murder. You will realize that there is hope and perhaps healing for you somewhere in the future.
You may want to be in touch with an advocacy group if you are interested in effecting change in government policy.
Mennonite Central Committee Canada. (2011). Getting through the maze: A guidebook for survivors of homicide.